After my breakdown this year (including my two hospital admissions), a Florence and the Machine song has meant the world to me. ‘Shake It Out’ makes me want to dance, smile, laugh and cry. A song I’ve listened to for years but only now do the words now really mean something to me.
A close friend of mine, who has been a large part of my recovery, said my breakdown in pregnancy was literally the best thing that ever happened to me. WHAT ON EARTH I thought? She explained that all my life I have been a pressure cooker and the lid needed to come off.
I am now on the most incredible journey. My eyes are opened to a new way of thinking and living. I’m practising techniques to stay well and reading self help reading books that are filling me with excitement for this new life. I have met some incredible people that are helping me and changing my life in the most positive way.
I had to go through the pain to wake myself up. I am now making changes to all aspects of my life (even leaving a job I have been in for over ten years.) I am moulding a life that I love and finally LOVING the life I already had but wouldn’t allow myself to enjoy.
My breaking point was awful, I can admit. I used to think about it often and it filled me with despair. My friend has now turned it into the most positive of thoughts. It’s the best thing that ever happened to me. It was the start of the rest of my life!
Nappies and wings 